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2003-04-09 - 4:08 p.m. - meh Tired and working late last night I had so much to do that it was completely overwhelming. Small problems began to bother me and eventually I got so frustrated that I came here and wrote "fuck", "bullshit" and other cheap colorful words in an attempt to feel better. Venting helped a little bit, but afterwards with still loads left to do and no other options, I shut both doors to the office I was working in, turned up my music as loud as I cared to and then proceeded to get to work. And it didn't take long to feel much, much better. Just before I left to go home I came back and deleted the entry because it seemed silly to leave it up after my mood had changed. I go through phases where I really want to open up to people, reach out and try to form connections and maintain friendships. Somewhere in the process I begin to feel that even the idea itself seems like wasted energy. None of this matters. previous - next - guestbook |